What Happened To Blackmouse & "The Train"...

Remember the train?..which blackmouse was supposed to decide whether or not to hop in it?..
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It crashed!!!!
Yes....right in front of her eyes..when she had decided to hop in it....
All the dilemmas, juz to watch it crash?..
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It's awful!!..blackmouse now hates "train"!!

**no human or mouse were hurt in the crash.......only blackmouse's lil tiny heart was hurt....quite badly.... :(

NOSE - E!!!

Like seriously...wat do u people want?...dont u hv other things to do?...oh wait, no, i dont mean u guys, my friends...it's all d bullshits with social notworking networking lahh!~

1. A sibling of my ex-bf (we broke up like 10 months ago) added me
2. A very close friend of my ex-bf (the same as above) added me
3. An old schoolmate of mine messaged/added me

No 1 & no 2..hello?...u wanna be friendly now?..fine..i accepted ur request..then what?..NOTHING!

No 3.. I was glad that u actually remembered me..n after ur 2nd msg, i realized dat u actually messaged & added me juz to find out how i got to know a particular guy who i happened to be commenting on his status..2nd message OK?!! dat's how obvious u wanna know about me knowing dat guy rather than "re-unite"..

1,2 n 3...u guys r plain NOSE-E!!! erghhh!!

And So It's 2010 Already...

my first post for 2010..
it's a new year..but nothing new (yet) bout me...i haven't been blogging for so long n today i felt like it again...after so long...yeah..maybe dat's something new?..heh..

so Black Mouse is currently wondering...

"there's a train coming....u either hop in THAT train or wait for another train to take u to ur destination.....(if there's ever gonna b another one)..?"

yeah?..to hop or not to hop?...THAT train might seem uncomfortable to ride in but if Black Mouse does not hop in THAT train, will there ever be another train?..if there is, then she's lucky..but what if that's the last train?...what if that's not the last one?...what will she be missing?..

Black Mouse remember writing about the road not taken last year, so this year, it's about the train..God knows what she'll be writing about next year..huhuuu...

And suddenly this song came to her mind......

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a blowtorch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning
So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
I promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep
It seems no one can help me now,
I'm in too deep, there's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Can you help me remember how to smile?
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded?
Life's mystery seems so faded
I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else's known
Here I am just a-drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train
And everything seems cut and dried,
Day and night, earth and sky,
Somehow I just don't believe it

Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughing at the rain
A little out of touch, a little insane
It's just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there
Runaway train, never coming back
Runaway train, tearing up the track
Runaway train, burning in my veins
I run away but it always seems the same

That's Runaway Train by Soul Asylum anyway....and THAT song is the song she should be singing if she ever miss the train n there's NO other train!! Enough wondering for the day I guess..

T.I.M.E

So it's been a while yea?..i juz don't know what to blog about...until today..
when i come to think of time...how time passes and many dreams achieved, while many more remain as dreams..

time rili flies...many things have changed..yet today, i'm sititng in front of my laptop wif d same old feeling..(which i rather not mention here)..y does dis thing keep happening to me..?..gimme sumthg new..or at least change me...make me have no feeling towards it..the more i tried not to take it to heart, the worse it felt..

can i simply back-off from dis whole system dat's starting to hurt me?..can I?...
there's no answer to it...because only TIME will tell...I guess I'd better switch to safe-mode before it's too late... *sigh* i rili hope dat dis is juz a phase...and soon, all this feelings will be gone...

Where R U Taking Me?..

i've been wanting to run away from all the things dats been haunting me...tried hard to live a normal life...n when i realise that all of it r already far behind me, i also realise dat all d good things r also left there...they dont tag along...so where r u taking me?...i want to be back to the happy times with them where life is all about being around people who u care n who care about u..

am i stuck or juz stranded here?..can i go back for the good things?..or will i juz get myself haunted again..?..so where r u taking me?..i missed being me..i want the old me..and the old u... so plz...plz tell me..where r u taking me..?..for if i'm not going to get my happy times..i'll stop following ur direction...coz i really miss them..