T.I.M.E

So it's been a while yea?..i juz don't know what to blog about...until today..
when i come to think of time...how time passes and many dreams achieved, while many more remain as dreams..

time rili flies...many things have changed..yet today, i'm sititng in front of my laptop wif d same old feeling..(which i rather not mention here)..y does dis thing keep happening to me..?..gimme sumthg new..or at least change me...make me have no feeling towards it..the more i tried not to take it to heart, the worse it felt..

can i simply back-off from dis whole system dat's starting to hurt me?..can I?...
there's no answer to it...because only TIME will tell...I guess I'd better switch to safe-mode before it's too late... *sigh* i rili hope dat dis is juz a phase...and soon, all this feelings will be gone...

Where R U Taking Me?..

i've been wanting to run away from all the things dats been haunting me...tried hard to live a normal life...n when i realise that all of it r already far behind me, i also realise dat all d good things r also left there...they dont tag along...so where r u taking me?...i want to be back to the happy times with them where life is all about being around people who u care n who care about u..

am i stuck or juz stranded here?..can i go back for the good things?..or will i juz get myself haunted again..?..so where r u taking me?..i missed being me..i want the old me..and the old u... so plz...plz tell me..where r u taking me..?..for if i'm not going to get my happy times..i'll stop following ur direction...coz i really miss them..

It's 12 a.m Now...

yes..it's 12am now...& in 12 hours time, i'll b in the middle of a celebration...a celebration for my 5 years of study...

going back to yesteryear... i still remember giving up on life juz bcoz of a dark moment..but slowly, i found d courage to stand again n so i paddle my way to the journey of 5 years to reach to my destination of getting a degree..

the judging eyes have always been looking down at me..their hands are ever ready to clap if i fall again...to them, i'm just gonna fall at anytime...once a failure, a failure i will be...

so, in 12 hours time, I shall be free from the judging eyes that have always been looking down at me..alhamdulillah....He had granted me a second chance...n i finally achieved what i dreamt of...i'm hoping that my success today will not make me forget of my responsibilities..

papa n mama...i'm sorry i turned u down last 5 years...i'm dedicating tomorrow to both of u..i know i'm not d best of all...but dis is d best dat i manage to be...thanks for all ur prayers alongway of my journey up till today..thanks also to my beloved sister n brother for d motivation n prayers..to my friends (near n far) who r alwiz around thru my ups n downs...and finally.....

all my lecturers for all that they've taught me in the past 5 years....to a particular lecturer, thanks for ur HUGE critic..it was becoz of ur critic dat i walk dat extra mile to prove u wrong...to prove to u dat my micro teaching isn't rubbish at all n dat wat u saw was juz bcoz i had no clue on wat to do coz i didn't get to attend ur class (with ur own permission).....i am seriously thanking u..n u shud know dat i cant erase d picture of u in my head..i'm alwiz reminded of u whenever i first walk into a new classroom to teach...thank you...

n to all the people (pak guard, pakcik bas, makcik cafe, abg CC, org2 TMnet, pakcik library, etc) who indirectly contributes to my achievement in d next 12 hours...THANK YOU!!! thank u so much!!~~

It Makes Me Wonder...

I'm in d process of recovering from a very high fever..i was flat for two days.. *sigh*
so yeah..feelin a bit better after meeting my peeps, i went back home n start checking my mails n wat not..wat makes me wonder is dat i've been receiving friends request from my ex's friends..?
hmmm...i'm just wondering..as to y now?..y is it dat dey r becoming friendly after we broke up?..
i came out wif a few reasons...

1) bukan la nk add sgt pn, tp da profile aku private, tepakse la add sbb nk view..
2) nk tau ape pasal ktorg break, aku ade laki lain ke..
3) saje je nk tgk kot2 tipu2 je breakup..
4) nk kepoh2 tgk aku cmne skrg..
5) nk make sure aku masih bernafas lepas da break?..

heh...very negative? i know! but come on la, apasal masa elok2 kitorg couple, xde plak korang nk beramah mesra nk add aku kan?? skrg plak nk add2..mintak maaf la kakak2, abang2, serta adik2 yg nk add aku tu...nk ckp aku sombong pn cakap la...aku lg tau sape aku..ko nk bekawan ngn aku ke?..i dont think so la..kalo x, konfem dr dulu pn ko da add or msg2 aku kn..bukan xde pn kawan "dia" yg msg2 n add aku...aku layan je...aku xde la sombong terjun lombong punya orang..heh..soriiii...naik loriiii...kalo da rase nk tawu sgt psl aku..tuh, p tny la kwn korg tuuu...
yes, aku hangin sbb korg nk sibuk2 life aku...

hah!!kan da kuar bahasa ibunda aku neh..sorry, must b d heat of my body dat caused me to easily get mad?..heh..blackmouse wonders no more....coz blackmouse doesn't need d kind of friend who doesn't know her at all n doesn't even try to make any effort to get to know her, but merely JUDGE her from wat dey can view on her profile!! thanks for d attention though...hahah!

Forbidden Love...?..

It's been a while since I last update my blog..
So many things happened that I don't rili hv the time to update my blog..
but paper n pen are almost everywhere that whenever i have the "urge" to write, I'll simply scribble it down..so here it goes......

There was a tale about a Mouse who is really crazy about cheese. One day, he fell deeply in love with the moon, thinking that she is a cheese. Every night, the Mouse will look up to the sky to watch the Moon. And during the day, he will be restless, waiting for night to come.

The Moon knows about the Mouse's feelings towards her. Feeling the attraction between them, the Moon decided to reveal her feelings to the Mouse. With cheese in one hand, the Mouse replied, "I do love you too Moon, but there's nothing I can do".

Upon listening to this, the Moon was so heart broken that she decided to hide herself among the clouds. Whenever the Mouse looked up to watch the Moon, she will hide herself. So, if you happen to look up to the sky and the Moon is hiding among the clouds, you should know that the Mouse is also looking up to see the moon......heh...enough said..move on!!