BMW - the Black Mouse Wonders..

J-U-N-E...

2010-05-27T15:04:00.004+08:00

Early of the year...I was pretty much looking forward for the month of June..but then He took it away from me way before things are about to happen...it's every girl's dream to have their lil secret fantasy...........mine's ruined.....it's over I know, but I can't lie that this coming June won't remind me of those things that I've dreamed of...I know this June will not quite bring me the happiness which I thought it would...but maybe He has better plans for me....June might be the kick start for a new dream?...perhaps..?....I kinda can't wait for June to be over...maybe that way I wouldn't be so reminded of those dreams... *sigh* I really need some distraction........hmmm...

i wanttttt........

2010-05-21T14:37:00.002+08:00

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my baby to wear this....................

my baby?.... *sigh*
i don't even have a husband..or a fiance...or a boyfriend... *sigh*
but stillll....i want....i just want my baby to wear this...
it's sooo cuteeee...hehee.. :D

Our days are numbered....

2010-05-08T22:21:00.003+08:00

Yea....our days ARE numbered...that's just why calendars have numbers...and our birthday adds number to our age.....

26 years of living, there are too many things that I wanted in life. Some which I managed to reach, while some are still out of reach. Despite of all the materials that I want, I am still seeking for happiness, pure happiness. I know that happiness won't last and that our life needs to be balanced with some sadness. But I have this feeling that sadness is starting to conquer my life and that I only managed to taste a split second of happiness. There are quite a number of things which I suppose are achievable to me, but I was forced to stop pursuing them. People have been saying that there may be something better that awaits me at the end of the day. I kept telling myself the same. But just how long can I lie to this broken heart that things are never going to be the way I wanted it to be. I can't even try to mend things in my own way. A leopard can never change its spot? That's exactly what I am. But the leopard is lucky coz he can behave just like how a leopard should behave. While I have to watch people around me achieve what they desire and watch mine shattered one after another. I just don't have the right to make a dream come true.

Die? People no longer die when they get old. Nowadays, people tend to die at young age. I don't know when I will die. No one knows. But I do know that my days are numbered. I can't stay alive forever. And I think I don't have much of a time to be upset about not getting to achieve what I desire. If I should die, I want to die happily. And leave the people who I love without having them being hurt about my misbehaviour or what not. If I were to die soon, I want them to be happy. So I suppose I should start behaving at my best. Be careful with my words and action as to not hurt those who I love. Need to learn to listen and not question too much. Whatever makes them happy should make me happy to. I'm sure they want me to be happy, as much as I want them to be happy. Now that sounds like a happy ending.

Well, looks like I gotta live everyday like it's my last day. May Allah bless me, and those I love. *amin*

no longer..........

2010-03-25T17:05:00.002+08:00

i no longer have to fake a smile...
whenever i smile now, it's straight from my heart...
i guess i'm over that phase now...
tho i have to admit dat at certain time, i still remember it...
but i guess that's just natural...
coz i was true...
and didnt fake those things...

i'm rili thankful to Him, dear famliy and darling friends (near, far, wherever u are..hehee) for helping me out of the phase...
whether u realize it or not, u've rili help me a lot in so many ways...

i'm smiling ear to ear.......thank u....thank u so much......

What Happened To Blackmouse & "The Train"...

2010-02-06T02:51:00.002+08:00

Remember the train?..which blackmouse was supposed to decide whether or not to hop in it?..
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It crashed!!!!
Yes....right in front of her eyes..when she had decided to hop in it....
All the dilemmas, juz to watch it crash?..
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It's awful!!..blackmouse now hates "train"!!

**no human or mouse were hurt in the crash.......only blackmouse's lil tiny heart was hurt....quite badly.... :(

NOSE - E!!!

2010-01-27T02:05:00.003+08:00

Like seriously...wat do u people want?...dont u hv other things to do?...oh wait, no, i dont mean u guys, my friends...it's all d bullshits with social ~~notworking~~ networking lahh!~

A sibling of my ex-bf (we broke up like 10 months ago) added me
A very close friend of my ex-bf (the same as above) added me
An old schoolmate of mine messaged/added me

No 1 & no 2..hello?...u wanna be friendly now?..fine..i accepted ur request..then what?..NOTHING!

No 3.. I was glad that u actually remembered me..n after ur 2nd msg, i realized dat u actually messaged & added me juz to find out how i got to know a particular guy who i happened to be commenting on his status..2nd message OK?!! dat's how obvious u wanna know about me knowing dat guy rather than "re-unite"..

1,2 n 3...u guys r plain NOSE-E!!! erghhh!!

And So It's 2010 Already...

2010-01-11T02:15:00.003+08:00

my first post for 2010..
it's a new year..but nothing new (yet) bout me...i haven't been blogging for so long n today i felt like it again...after so long...yeah..maybe dat's something new?..heh..

so Black Mouse is currently wondering...

"there's a train coming....u either hop in THAT train or wait for another train to take u to ur destination.....(if there's ever gonna b another one)..?"

yeah?..to hop or not to hop?...THAT train might seem uncomfortable to ride in but if Black Mouse does not hop in THAT train, will there ever be another train?..if there is, then she's lucky..but what if that's the last train?...what if that's not the last one?...what will she be missing?..

Black Mouse remember writing about the road not taken last year, so this year, it's about the train..God knows what she'll be writing about next year..huhuuu...

And suddenly this song came to her mind......

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a blowtorch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning
So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
I promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep
It seems no one can help me now,
I'm in too deep, there's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Can you help me remember how to smile?
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded?
Life's mystery seems so faded
I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else's known
Here I am just a-drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train
And everything seems cut and dried,
Day and night, earth and sky,
Somehow I just don't believe it

Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughing at the rain
A little out of touch, a little insane
It's just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there
Runaway train, never coming back
Runaway train, tearing up the track
Runaway train, burning in my veins
I run away but it always seems the same

That's Runaway Train by Soul Asylum anyway....and THAT song is the song she should be singing if she ever miss the train n there's NO other train!! Enough wondering for the day I guess..

T.I.M.E

2009-08-10T08:47:00.002+08:00

So it's been a while yea?..i juz don't know what to blog about...until today..
when i come to think of time...how time passes and many dreams achieved, while many more remain as dreams..

time rili flies...many things have changed..yet today, i'm sititng in front of my laptop wif d same old feeling..(which i rather not mention here)..y does dis thing keep happening to me..?..gimme sumthg new..or at least change me...make me have no feeling towards it..the more i tried not to take it to heart, the worse it felt..

can i simply back-off from dis whole system dat's starting to hurt me?..can I?...
there's no answer to it...because only TIME will tell...I guess I'd better switch to safe-mode before it's too late... *sigh* i rili hope dat dis is juz a phase...and soon, all this feelings will be gone...

Where R U Taking Me?..

2009-07-07T10:20:00.002+08:00

i've been wanting to run away from all the things dats been haunting me...tried hard to live a normal life...n when i realise that all of it r already far behind me, i also realise dat all d good things r also left there...they dont tag along...so where r u taking me?...i want to be back to the happy times with them where life is all about being around people who u care n who care about u..

am i stuck or juz stranded here?..can i go back for the good things?..or will i juz get myself haunted again..?..so where r u taking me?..i missed being me..i want the old me..and the old u... so plz...plz tell me..where r u taking me..?..for if i'm not going to get my happy times..i'll stop following ur direction...coz i really miss them..

It's 12 a.m Now...

2009-06-03T00:11:00.003+08:00

yes..it's 12am now...& in 12 hours time, i'll b in the middle of a celebration...a celebration for my 5 years of study...

going back to yesteryear... i still remember giving up on life juz bcoz of a dark moment..but slowly, i found d courage to stand again n so i paddle my way to the journey of 5 years to reach to my destination of getting a degree..

the judging eyes have always been looking down at me..their hands are ever ready to clap if i fall again...to them, i'm just gonna fall at anytime...once a failure, a failure i will be...

so, in 12 hours time, I shall be free from the judging eyes that have always been looking down at me..alhamdulillah....He had granted me a second chance...n i finally achieved what i dreamt of...i'm hoping that my success today will not make me forget of my responsibilities..

papa n mama...i'm sorry i turned u down last 5 years...i'm dedicating tomorrow to both of u..i know i'm not d best of all...but dis is d best dat i manage to be...thanks for all ur prayers alongway of my journey up till today..thanks also to my beloved sister n brother for d motivation n prayers..to my friends (near n far) who r alwiz around thru my ups n downs...and finally.....

all my lecturers for all that they've taught me in the past 5 years....to a particular lecturer, thanks for ur HUGE critic..it was becoz of ur critic dat i walk dat extra mile to prove u wrong...to prove to u dat my micro teaching isn't rubbish at all n dat wat u saw was juz bcoz i had no clue on wat to do coz i didn't get to attend ur class (with ur own permission).....i am seriously thanking u..n u shud know dat i cant erase d picture of u in my head..i'm alwiz reminded of u whenever i first walk into a new classroom to teach...thank you...

n to all the people (pak guard, pakcik bas, makcik cafe, abg CC, org2 TMnet, pakcik library, etc) who indirectly contributes to my achievement in d next 12 hours...THANK YOU!!! thank u so much!!~~

It Makes Me Wonder...

2009-05-31T22:53:00.002+08:00

I'm in d process of recovering from a very high fever..i was flat for two days.. *sigh*
so yeah..feelin a bit better after meeting my peeps, i went back home n start checking my mails n wat not..wat makes me wonder is dat i've been receiving friends request from my ex's friends..?
hmmm...i'm just wondering..as to y now?..y is it dat dey r becoming friendly after we broke up?..
i came out wif a few reasons...

1) bukan la nk add sgt pn, tp da profile aku private, tepakse la add sbb nk view..
2) nk tau ape pasal ktorg break, aku ade laki lain ke..
3) saje je nk tgk kot2 tipu2 je breakup..
4) nk kepoh2 tgk aku cmne skrg..
5) nk make sure aku masih bernafas lepas da break?..

heh...very negative? i know! but come on la, apasal masa elok2 kitorg couple, xde plak korang nk beramah mesra nk add aku kan?? skrg plak nk add2..mintak maaf la kakak2, abang2, serta adik2 yg nk add aku tu...nk ckp aku sombong pn cakap la...aku lg tau sape aku..ko nk bekawan ngn aku ke?..i dont think so la..kalo x, konfem dr dulu pn ko da add or msg2 aku kn..bukan xde pn kawan "dia" yg msg2 n add aku...aku layan je...aku xde la sombong terjun lombong punya orang..heh..soriiii...naik loriiii...kalo da rase nk tawu sgt psl aku..tuh, p tny la kwn korg tuuu...
yes, aku hangin sbb korg nk sibuk2 life aku...

hah!!kan da kuar bahasa ibunda aku neh..sorry, must b d heat of my body dat caused me to easily get mad?..heh..blackmouse wonders no more....coz blackmouse doesn't need d kind of friend who doesn't know her at all n doesn't even try to make any effort to get to know her, but merely JUDGE her from wat dey can view on her profile!! thanks for d attention though...hahah!

Forbidden Love...?..

2009-05-17T14:42:00.005+08:00

It's been a while since I last update my blog..
So many things happened that I don't rili hv the time to update my blog..
but paper n pen are almost everywhere that whenever i have the "urge" to write, I'll simply scribble it down..so here it goes......

There was a tale about a Mouse who is really crazy about cheese. One day, he fell deeply in love with the moon, thinking that she is a cheese. Every night, the Mouse will look up to the sky to watch the Moon. And during the day, he will be restless, waiting for night to come.

The Moon knows about the Mouse's feelings towards her. Feeling the attraction between them, the Moon decided to reveal her feelings to the Mouse. With cheese in one hand, the Mouse replied, "I do love you too Moon, but there's nothing I can do".

Upon listening to this, the Moon was so heart broken that she decided to hide herself among the clouds. Whenever the Mouse looked up to watch the Moon, she will hide herself. So, if you happen to look up to the sky and the Moon is hiding among the clouds, you should know that the Mouse is also looking up to see the moon......heh...enough said..move on!!

Tenggang Blackmouse homecoming...

2009-05-04T16:50:00.005+08:00

Blackmouse would like to report about her so-called loooong holiday dat she had, in conjunction of labour's day..hahah..so yeah, on the 30th of April, blackmouse drove back to her hometown rite after work..

Feeling quite tired due to not having enough sleep the nite before, she sang along to almost all the songs she had in her collection..a few kilometres upon arriving to her destination...blackmouse saw..........
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"dah sampai HOLLYWOOD?????" she thought...den she blinked her eyes several times to make sure dat it wasn't a dream...
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."haaaa...baru la betolll.."...heh..didn't know dat Ipoh had similar signage like the one in Hollywood..

p/s: Blackmouse enjoyed her so called loooong holiday..how bout u??.. ;)

When You Weren't Looking

2009-04-28T19:46:00.003+08:00

...Blackmouse fell down today at one of the school's stairs..not too sure what went wrong tho..but it seems dat a certain switch's been turned on..Blackmouse suddenly felt like writing...hmmm...
Here it goes.....

When you weren't looking,
I checked my hair if it's in place.
When you weren't looking,
I stared at your hair wanting to put it in place.

When you weren't looking,
I smiled at you in daze.
When you weren't looking,
I watched you smiling and suddenly feel safe.

When you weren't looking,
I said a little prayer.
When you weren't looking,
I shifted to be nearer.

When you weren't looking,
I secretly wished we can be happy together.
When you weren't looking,
I hoped I'll no longer live in tear.

When you looked
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I ran away.....................and cried!

Syukur pada Mu...

2009-04-26T21:52:00.004+08:00

WARNING: Pls don't bother reading this entry..i juz need a channel to let out my feeling(s)..n it's darn long!

Hmm...
Hrni aku rs nk ckp bahse ibunda..coz entry kali ni is luahan perasaan yg aku pn xtau la nk kate ape..aku hepi hrni kuar jln2 bersama kwn2..kuar kalini bkn takat kuar jln2 kosong..tp dgn mission nk wat bisnes..terasa dunia ni masih luas..byk lg celahan hidup yg aku blom explore..btol la kot org puteh kate, life starts at 40 ek?..tu psl la kot aku rs cm life aku xstart2 lagik..hahah!

Round punya round, dpt la aku collect dua bisnes card utk aku kire2 nk wat bisnes..den kitorg troskn jln2..psl jln2 xya la kot cite..kite fast forward part tu..so, on d way back, borak2 la psl future n wat not..den kwn aku pn bukak la offer psl kwn die nk cr calon wife..n kwn aku ni sungguh2 rekomen kt ktorg..kateny d guy target nk kawin nxt year xsilap..mase dgr tu, fuhh..tros t'ingat kat some1..huhuh..bunyi offer mcm menarik..a chance to get to know another soul who's also looking kan..dari dok merayap kat secret garden..but den, aku decline...coz aku rs cam xbest je cmtu..da la kwn aku tu ckp org tu xnk b'cinta dlu, nk b'cinta pas kawin..erk..sempat ke nk knal cmtu?..

Oh ok..aku tau ade je org yg b'cinta pas kawin..no offense k..aku hormat keputusan korg n infact salute korg coz brani take dat step..aku x kot..or mayb blom smpi tahap seberani korg..but den lately ni aku cam rs tah pape...since sorg2 kwn aku dok naik pelamin..cam rs, "ape nk jd kt aku nih?"..hmm..quite a few jgk kwn2 yg da ade anak..adeyh..rs cam aku akn cmni smpi tua...coz aku xmeet new people kot..tahla..da la aku ni penyegan..huhuh..

Tapiii...dlm dok bengong2 cmnih, aku t'bc la blog some1..mmg btol la org kate m'baca ni leh luaskn pengetahuan, bla bla bla..coz aku bru sedar.....yg sbenar2ny....aku bkn perlu smua tu..aku juz rs cmtu sbb keadaan sekeliling..sbb smua org ada...sbb umur cmni org slalu settle down..seriously, aku bodoh..alhamdulillah Allah dorong aku g baca blog tu..aku skrg sedar n paham maksud settle down yg sbenarny..settle down, is bila kita rs nk hidup b'same org tersebut..bkn kite pegi cari sane sini utk hidup bersame org tu..mayb blogger tu xmention camtu, tp itu yg aku phm sndr..tibe2, i dont feel dat old anymore..hahah!..ada la tu nti, for me..amin..~

Fuhhhhh! lega btol da pokpek pjg lebar cmnih..maka t'bukti la bku yg aku pnah bc dlu kate, writing is a therapy..soooo trueee!!

p/s: hopefully k'sedaran ni b'thn lame..takut je bgun2 esk da stat blik..hahha! ape pun, for now..aku hepi cam nih...weee~

this heart is itching......

2009-04-24T23:10:00.004+08:00

while walking round a flea market today, blackmouse spotted this and instantly fell in love wif it..she would've dived at it if her pocket was thick..heh..now her heart is rili itching for it.....

"I'm so gonna get this!!!!!"

1st Rendezvous...

2009-04-20T21:11:00.003+08:00

tadaaa...this is our picture during our 1st rendezvous... we were walking hand in hand..LOL! i can see dat he's rili happy..juz look at d way he smiled!! hahah!..love ur smile Mr. S..weeee~

A Mouse Is A Mouse & Can Never Be Something Else...............

2009-04-17T11:23:00.004+08:00

Blackmouse telah di tag oleh Zurin...here we go....

1. Letakkan gambar profile anda
2. Terangkan maksud gambar itu
Well, ini lah konon nya saya...

3. Kenapa pilih gambar itu
Sbb sy kan tikus hitam?..xde muka, sbb xnk kna judge...judge me by my ears plz.. :P

4. Tag 5 lagi blogger!
Alamak..! Bleh x i tag u balik Zurin?..hee..
Zurin, Afrina, Adik Paku, Sifu & Cik Nab..

Secret Garden...

2009-04-17T08:41:00.005+08:00

Recently, I found a garden, my secret garden. Whenever i'm happy or sad, i'll go to my secret garden to pour my heart out. In a magical way which I can't explain, I always ended up feeling glad that I went to my secret garden. Since my life is in such a mess rite now, i tend to be a frequent visitor of my secret garden. I laughed and cried in this little secret garden. And now i started to wish that this secret garden is really mine.

Now, I felt guilty that all this while, I had been trespassing someone else's garden. If this garden is rili mine, I wudn't have liked it if someone else had simply walk into my garden. It's not that I'm being selfish. But there are just some things that we want to call our own, don't we? We just need to have some sense of belonging at times.

It's about time that I walk out of my secret garden. It wasn't even mine after all. I was just a trespasser. Thank you secret garden for all the moments and your magical way of making me happy. Though I will no longer be visiting you, you will always be on my mind. To the garden owner, I am deeply sorry for what I had done. I do hope that you'll forgive me.

And to my secret garden, do pray that I'll find another garden. Another garden just like you....with magical power to make me happy and which I can call my own...

Au revoir moi 'secret garden'......................

Of Numbers & Figures?...

2009-04-14T13:21:00.003+08:00

My colleagues and I had our girl talk in the library today...yes, students are having their mid-term break so the library was pretty empty..then, in the midst of conversation, my little brain up there made me realize.......dat life's too short to be wasted on unworthy things..well, of course different people have different definition of unworthy..n so do I..........

n it doesn't just end there...i kept pondering on it even after lunch..i'm in my mid-twenties now..like, what have i done in the past 20 plus years??..it's all about the numbers right?..if only our age doesn't increase, then it wouldn't have mattered, rite?...but come to think of it, there's a reason to why people start inventing something called "numbers" and "figures".......?....so that we can keep track, agree?...

*sigh*

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*laughs*

oh no, is this wat old people tend to do?..ponder too much on life like there's nothing else to be done..??..hahah! i AM younggggg!.. & i'd love to waste morrre time on unworthy things....coz when the time comes and i get rili old, then i would regret not doing all the unworthy things..so yeah, come what may...i am sooo doing my thingsss..

p/s: some people commented on my habit of thinking too much..well, i don't see it as a problem tho...i think it's one of the ways to keep my brain working..hahahaha!.. juz b careful on wat ur thinkin about... ;) ..ngeeee~

If....

2009-04-11T23:06:00.004+08:00

If I could wear my heart on my sleeve...den I bet none would judge me for what I am not..
I know it's just human's nature to judge another person..but some forget to keep their judgment within their own thoughts........

I once fell flat on the ground for a particular person's judgment towards me which changed my life, entirely......yes, it's like all my hopes and dreams were ruined in a flash!.. I so wanted to confront dat particular person about it..I wanted to proof him/her wrong......I wanted him/her to know the real me...and not just what he/she saw...but I didn't...I decided to let it be........

I tried to forget about it as I do not want to hold a grudge against dat particular person..there's just no use for me to be holding a grudge when everything's gone......n tonight, again....by another person...........

I really wish I could wear my heart on my sleeve...den u wouldn't have judge me the way u did...I'm not all dat perfect..nobody is.......but if u could only see my heart, you'll regret saying what you just said......this broken heart is full of million things that u haven't got the chance to know yet.....but u decided to judge....i am nobody...u can have ur say......n so do i...here, at dis little place i called mine...thanks...........

Would U Accept This?

2009-04-11T21:01:00.003+08:00

Dear you...

I am very happy to inform you that I have fallen in love with you. I would like to present myself as a prospective lover. Our love affair would be on probation for a period of three months and depending on compatibility, would be made permanent. Of course, upon completion of probation, there will be continuous on-the-job training and performance appraisal schemes leading up to promotion from lover to spouse.

Thanking you in anticipation

Yours sincerely,
Me
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Blackmouse found this cute lil letter while playing an online game..
& she thinks dat it's pretty cuteeee..in a way..heee..
so, would u accept this love letter?..
yes, you! you are reading this aren't you?..
LMAO!!!

Red Red Wine Bike...

2009-04-04T09:05:00.004+08:00

Weeeeee~~
Saw dis bike on d way to work.....
Turned out dat d rider headed to my office!!
Nice ride u have there man!!!!!

ngeee...wonderin if ur a student or staff here....
nk tumpang....hahahha!
tp bukan tumpang naik, nk tumpang bawak round2 cyberjaya...
weeeeeee~~

p/s:alamak...kang Mr. S jeles plak dah... :P

My New Love....weee~

2009-04-03T10:41:00.004+08:00

In one of my entries, i mentioned dat in life, when one door closes, another opens...true enough...

Coz today, I found a new love...he is Mr. S...weeee~
We met at my new office...(love at first sight lah konon!)
Ngeee..today i dun hv any class..so, I'm spending d day wif him...
Dis is d 1st time u'll see my pic on my blog...n who wud hv tot dat u'll see me wif my new love..

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blackmouse n Mr. S....

**sweet x kitorg??...hee...kalo aku keje lame2 kt cni, jd cam Mr. S la kot kn?..handsome la jugak bopren baru aku ni ek?..putih melepak tuuu!!wahahahha!

A Lil Bit Of Dis....A Lil Bit Of Dat...

2009-03-31T19:32:00.002+08:00

Was early to work........feeling light-headed...the clock went tick-tock-tick-tock...

9 a.m - It's no use crying over spilt milk

11 a.m - No pain, no gain

12 p.m - Easy come, easy go

2 p.m - Every cloud has a silver lining

4 p.m - Let bygones be bygones
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6 p.m - Absence makes the heart grow fonder
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Demmm!!

Life's A Bi%$#?..no!..book!

2009-03-30T20:10:00.004+08:00

Life's a book..seriously...
i'm realizing dat i've recently turned into a chapter full of surpises & happiness..n now i'm at d chapter where bad things happen..no idea how long this chapter wud b..

me trying to read this chapter at top speed..expecting good things in the next chapter..
oh my...we edited our book as to produce a better story..but who are we to tell..?
He had decided everything for us...we r merely playing our part in the book of life..

all the best to u Mr Bz Bee..i'm out of words................tsk tsk~

p/s: where's the "....and they live happily ever after.." part??!!!!!

What Lies Ahead?....

2009-03-26T16:28:00.005+08:00

nobody knows what lies ahead...but dat should never stop us from planning for our future..
all these years of living...i had too many plans...i love planning ahead as i'm the kind of person who likes to see where i'm heading..that explains y i love to keep an organizer/planner with me..a friend of mine thought dat i'm a diary person...well, dats not true..i dont get along well with diaries as i don't write frequently about what happened to me & wudnt wanna risk misplacing it n having some other people to read 'em...

so yeah, an organizer/planner allows me to simply mark n jott wat-so-ever important things i need to do/buy....or somewhere along the line..these few days, i've been jotting down important things to do regarding the classes i'm teaching..n i repeat, teaching..

heaven knows, i've been hunting for a teaching job for quite some time and upon feeling stressed out dat other friends had easily gotten wat they want & wat they like..i landed in the world of translation which is like a dream come true to me..it's rili fun and i enjoyed working with non-human as i do not have to get into office politics or deal with human behaviour..no voice projection needed, no calorie burning..juz sit in front of d laptop n do my stuff [n oso other stuff ;) ]

little did i know dat one of the resumes i posted for teaching job will make me a teacher today?!.. it's pretty unbelievable..but it's true..so we rili can't tell what lies ahead, can we?..i'd say the same applies to our love life?..nobody knows what lies ahead, but bear in mind that we need to have a dream in order to make it come true..so we gotta plan ahead, despite not knowing what lies ahead..(gile belit ayat aku!)..so phm murid2 ye?..cikgu pn da melalut da ni..coz i'm pretty confuse myself bout my plans..i loooove planning...but i never have a back up plan...so when things fall apart, i tend to fall apart too....

que sera sera....(what will be, will be?!)
enuff said.....!!

i believe........

2009-03-23T09:58:00.003+08:00

i believe that when one door closes....another opens...
n yes...today my contract ends...n tomorrow, another contract awaits...
i'm grateful for what He gives...though it's pretty confusing when i had to choose between two roads...

now i'm given a highway...which will lead me to more roads that i have to choose..
but i believe, He up there, listens to my prayer.....

Alhamdulillah...may He bless me, my family, my friends, & all the people out there..
n may i b stronger for wat may come (as there's a hole in my heart)...i'm glad that my friends are still around me despite of their busy life..

most of all, i'm grateful dat my parents & siblings are always there...i love all of u...
& i believe....that THIS love is true...............

Friendly Match......

2009-03-17T09:40:00.002+08:00

I had a friendly match today on my way to the office..mm...actually, i don't quite get it..y izit dat guys like to "test"@"acah" girls when they r driving....i jump to the conclusion dat dey enjoy watching girls being afraid when they (guys) "acah" the girls..

well sori mr black waja..u got d wrong person...i cant tolerate dis kind of person..unless i'm not in d mood, or there's another person in my car..so yeah, i played his game...sori to say, "makan asap la brader!!!"...i tot i left him quite far...so i get down to my normal speed n relax..little did i know dat he is still chasing me...when he managed to chase me, he wind down his mirror & showed a thumbs up sign..so yeah, it's just a friendly match...i smiled and nodded...n he drove off at high speed...
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come to think of it...d guy mite have just "kasi chan" only...huhuu...but nice rims u hv there mister..peace!!

My Life Suck Without You....

2009-03-16T08:59:00.005+08:00

yes...i know....bad start for a Monday morning...surprisingly, the roads today are quite clear and i reach my office quite early..however, along the journey, i just have the instinct that something is not right...but i can't seem to tell what it is..and upon reaching my office, i come to realise the fact that i................................had left my handphone at home!!!..arghhhh!!

separation from my handphone is a torture to me..i'm so used to having it reachable..so used to spinning it around (it's becoming a habit...i even do it when i'm driving...huhu..), sms-ing n calling frenz anywhere n anytime... *sigh*

i'm missing u incik sony ericsson.....can't wait to go home today to see u n hold u in my arms...eh, in my hands...hehehhh... :P

last but not least, "My life suck without you Incik Sony Ericsson!!!".....

Confusion....HELP!!

2009-03-15T11:35:00.005+08:00

Blackmouse is confused...
plz help blackmouse decide...

Option A

= cheaper

= lower speed

= not so new, yet not so old model

Option B

= more expensive than Option A yet affordable

= higher speed

= kinda new model

blackmouse goes crazy when she saw these two black usb modem!!
both design looks cool...unlike other dull-looking usb modem..
at first thought, blackmouse wants to grab option A...
because she only has a low speed connection...(oso becoz its cheaper..heheh!)
at 2nd thought, what if soon, blackmouse wants to subscribe to a faster connection, den wudn't it b a waste to buy another modem?..
at 3rd thought, by the time she change to a faster connection, she wud b rich enough (n wudn't mind buying a 2nd modem, yg 1st kasi kucing main je..)..hahha! :P
i just cant seem to make up my mind....ur piece of mind is highly appreciated..

P/s: i also accept money order, cheque, paypall etc..bwekkk!!

i love.......

2009-03-14T09:19:00.003+08:00

i love......
driving on a Saturday morning...where the roads are clear...
but nothing beats snuggling under the comforter on a RAINY Saturday morning!!

I AM in my OFFICE rite now...ohhhh...& I LOVEEEEEEE IT!!~

P/s: thanx 4 reading between the lines..

Red Durian...for real!!!!

2009-03-11T09:45:00.004+08:00

after all these years....baru harini tau ade durian merah...thanks to my job...
ngeee...blackmouse wondering, bile nk dpt rase durian merah ni???....

p/s: anyone going to sabah?..peleaaaaaseeee belikn if ade..but lepas ke nk bwk naik flight?..huhuu..

Tagged for the first time...

2009-03-06T16:02:00.002+08:00

Kepada Cik Afrina...terima kasih...poning palo den nk m'jwbnyo...hohoo..

5 Characteristics of your dream guy/girl:
1) boleh membimbing ke arah yg elok…sbb aku byk kekurangan..
2) boleh converse in English dgn baik..so dat aku bleh improve English aku..
3) matang dlm pemikiran..
4) berani buat keputusan..
5) talkative tetapi tahu masa yg patut utk diam..hahah!

5 Characteristics that you have never like in a guy/girl
1) janji kosong..mmg la markah anda kosong!
2) ikut kepala sndr jek..
3) yakin diri yg melampau..
4) ske b’rahsia..
5) xske pakai jam = kalo janji memang la dtg lambat kn?!

5 feelings that you have when you're out with the one you admire:
1) hehe..mimpi ke berangan nih?
2) bleh x jgn senyum sgt?..nti xmau balik bru tau!
3) tlg la dok seblah time mkn..xleh mkn la kalo tgk muka ko!(segannns!)
4) ala…cptny da petang?..da kna balik ke ni?..wuuuu…
5) nxt time ajak la kua lg…huhuu..

5 places that you want to travel with your loved one
1) Melaka (yg da b’ubah wajah..)
2) Langkawi (yg smua family aku da g except me!)
3) mane2 tmpt snow kt m’sia nih (sbb aku tade duet nk p main snow btol)
3) go-cart circuit (dr dulu bapak aku xkasi main..kononny sbb xde lesen..huhu..)
4) fishing kat sepang (pastu masak tros kt sane..tp bkn aku, kedai yg msk!yayy!!)
5) Disneyland (plz lah..nk sgt2!! Huhu..)

5 special things that you would give to your loved one:
1) masa..
2) perhatian..
3) kasih sayang..
4) kesetiaan..
5) bebelan jika perlu..(smua ini akan jd special if I’m ur special sum1..kan?..kahkahkah!)

5 songs that you will sing to your partner
1) Sometimes – Britney Spears
2) How Do I Live – Trisha Yearwood
3) Mengintai Langit - Coco
4) Menjauhkan Diri – Fauziah Latiff
5) Linger – The Cranberries

p/s: jwpnku poyo belaka..

HATE!!

2009-03-04T09:26:00.003+08:00

Hate is a strong word....i know...all my life i tried to avoid using this word because of its strong meaning dat it carries along..however, I can't hold this word inside anymore...

I HATE @#$%&!!

Don't worry friends, it's not any of u..and it's not a specific person...but a specific company.. they are trying to cheat some money out of me!! (dah la aku baru je stat keje...mane ade sen!!)

After all these years of bad service...they are trying to get some “extra” money..when i placed a complain months ago, they said that it was a “mistaken charge” in my bill and they will waive it in my next bill...4 months passed yet it’s still not waived...so again i called them asking bout the matter....

To my anger, the customer service lady raised her voice at me and told me that the “mistaken charge” had been waived..instead, i am the one who did not pay 4 months of bills (equivalent to the “mistaken charge”)...i know my math & IQ mite not be as gud as of Adi Putra...but seriously, YOU are trying to twist things up...that “mistaken charge” is supposed to be waived...but now u r telling me dat I didn’t pay my bills..i’ve got all the proofs dat I paid my bills every month! Try me!! Come & get ur dirty money & i’ll assure YOU that i’ll write to the newspapers as well as TV!

Ur company ain’t a small company..why r u trying to get dirty money from customers..???...waive dat bloody amount and count me out from ur customer list.. i’m not gonna stand ur bad service+bad customer care...I HATE YOU @#$%&!! Can’t believe the company i’m working with is doing ur project...Damn!!!

Two roads diverged.....

2009-02-25T21:29:00.002+08:00

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
& sorry I could not travel both...

Thanks Mr Frost...u really speak my mind!...
Oh yeah people..blackmouse started a new job last Monday...
Starting to miss ym n facebook..tho my colleagues r happily ym-ing at d office..
Don't get me wrong, i juz couldnt download it..it's not blocked, it juz got interupted halfway (95% plak tuh..erghh!!)

Anyway...since i started on Monday, I've been receiving calls for i/view.. *sigh*
Not like i'm not being thankful bout it...but plz refer to the excerpt above...
It's simply confusing...ok?..

I like what I'm doing now..I do not have to control humans (students) or "open my jaw when i'm talking"..hahah!..but there's also part of me wanting to do that...all this while i have always wanted to be a teacher..untill i did my practical..huhhh~

but then i think it's becoz i need to control those little ones..so i tot teaching young adults wud b perfect...so i aim for dat..but i have my own dream of becoming a subtitle editor..which i think i can never get even my toe into..

today...i'm doing something quite similar to my dream..i am enjoying it...but the i/view calls for teaching position?....it's only my 3rd day, how am i suppose to go for the i/view?..when there's a will, there's a way........so.........?

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled

P/s: ye la tu less travelled...huhuu...

**excerpts from The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost (1920)

Yesterday...

2009-02-22T22:20:00.004+08:00

I chatted wif my best fren cum old fren cum classmate cum skoolmate cum mirc mate (n d list goes on lah!)...
along d conversation...i told her......

hati perempuan ibarat bunga..
kena siram selalu..
kalau tak siram, ia layu..
tapi kalau orang lain tolong siram....
bunga tu tak layu..
tapi dia kembang, harum, di laman orang...

heh...i said dat?..yeah, i did...so to all d guys out there, siram2lah bunga anda tu slalu..seblom org lain tolong siramkn..huhuu...

Today........

2009-02-22T00:40:00.003+08:00

I realize how ignorant I was about things that happen around me......
how i decide to know only what i want to know and not what i should know......

I am getting older...yet the wonderful thing up there which God gave me wasn't fully used..

.....change?..hee..yeah-well-maybe..hope so?...hehhehehehheheh!!

the SMS which makes me smile..

2009-02-18T09:44:00.004+08:00

*message tone*
-view message-

Hi! ur cheque was ready for collect. pls make it b4 end of this mth. TQ. K****

Nevermind the grammar..apa yg penting?? $$ is coming to me...weehoo...cek lg 1, bile la nk dpt..?..

the SMS which adds oil to fire..heh..

2009-02-18T00:43:00.006+08:00

*message tone*
-view message-

Please rate our ***** staff from 1 to 5, 1=lowest & 5=highest for the customer experience you received recently. Kindly reply to 2***2 at no cost to you. TQ

heh...heh...heh...did u just say at no cost?..after 3 calls?..ok..

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CUSTOMER CARE LA SANGAT!!!!!

2009-02-17T17:05:00.003+08:00

i wanted to activate my voicemail tadi..so i check la kat website...

fine, gotta call the customer care consultants..(dis call is charged + i'm using prepaid..damn!!)

so yeah...i called..consultant A answered..asking me my details n wat not..
den she told me dat i gotta dial the *100# to activate my voicemail..she told me to select "perkhidmatan lain/other service" and then select voicemail and activate..at the end of the conversation, she ask me to rate her from 1-5...me yg fikir they get allowance for performance pn bagi la 5 out of 5..

den??me godeh the whole f%$#ing *100# but "voicemail" is no where to be found!!
so i called the damn line again...this time slightly annoyed...i'm no longer the nice customer calling to enquire but a slightly annoyed customer yg bengang kreditnya goes to waste n rating 5 out of 5 pada org yg xlayak!! so consultant B answered...again asking my details which i answered kot celah gigi je..so i repeat my question n dis time she ordered me to call 122 and listen to the machine's instruction to activate my voice mail..after she said dat, i told her dat it is my 2nd time calling n dat d previous consultant told me to dial the *100# bla bla bla....she asked me for the consultant's name n i told her...n "oh, dat girl is still on training"..wateva!!!

again, before we end the conversation, i was asked to rate..thinking dat she had helped me..i gave her a 5..but M^&*%# F&%^$#!! she too gave me the wrong info!!kredit kena telan lagi!!! argh!! now i'm a super annoyed customer!! called for the 3rd time n ready to give a 1 out of 5!kalau boleh 0!! consultant C answered..i gave my details before she could even ask...when she ask me how can she help me, apa lagi...tros la me tembak her..i told her that i just wanted to activate my voicemail..n i had to call 3 times and get different answers from different consultants..dgn suara yg sgt emo, i told her dat her info better be correct..so she told me that since my number wasn't registered under my name, she cant activate it for me..i have to get the person who registered my number to call them and then they'll activate my number..again she kena wif me..but she remain quiet..she didnt even say sorry on behalf of her colleagues..grrrrr! den she ask me.."sebelum menamatkan panggilan ini, boleh cik beri markah 1-5 untuk perbualan saya.. 1 sebagai paling rendah dan 5 yang tertinggi.."...
teka brapa aku rate??
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5!!! damn!! marah tp xsampai ati.............coz it wasn't rili her fault..it's her colleagues'....haih!!

Which Superhero are you?

2009-02-17T13:30:00.002+08:00

I took the test....
& voila!! here's the result...............

Your results:
You are Green Lantern

Green Lantern		70%
Superman		65%
Supergirl		55%
Robin		52%
Hulk		45%
Wonder Woman		40%
Spider-Man		40%
Catwoman		40%
Iron Man		40%
The Flash		35%
Batman		30%

Hot-headed. You have strong
will power and a good imagination.

Click here to take the Superhero Personality Quiz

p/s: green is so not my colour!!!
so, which Superhero are you?..

Song for the soul....~

2009-02-17T13:12:00.002+08:00

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

February..

2009-02-02T01:35:00.003+08:00

It's already February..how time flies.....yet i'm still unemployed..

ohhh..ahh...i haven't update my blog 4 quite a while ek?..forgot to mention dat I quit d previous job..it's juz too depressing kot?..hee..so now i'm back to d usual stuff..hunting & hunting...dunno when it'll end...having an interview on tuesday n hoping to land there for a while b4 i get the "right call" (i believe there's the right one somewhere out there)...

*sigh*
*yawn*
ZZZZzzzzzzzzz~

Will i Survive??..~

2009-01-22T23:41:00.004+08:00

Aku saje guna hurup kecik "i" untuk menunjukkn betapa kerdilnya diriku ini...huhu..

Blackmouse skrg da jadi kuli...dgn gaji kuli ku itu, will i survive?..mm..parking keta per day je dah 7 hinggit..bkn bleh nk claim pn..haih...mcm2 lah idup nih...tp, dlm pnat2 aku blik keje n smpi umah dlm kol 10 tu...aku happy...sbb jiran aku da balik..so anjing pn snyp ler sbb dpt b'kepit ngn tuan dia..

Masa nk balik dr keje tu, singgah bli burger..pastu tipon la skali parents ku yg jauh di sanun..tgh ckp fon tu tibe2 nk sdih plak..rupeny aku da mkin tua, cpt btl t'sentuh ati..aku sbnrny pnat, hrni aku jd kuli dr 9.30am smpi 9.30pm..pastu aku t'ingat dlu masa kecik2..main mintak je mcm2 kat parents..xpk camne ssh dorg cari duit..(rsny cm smpi skrg pn dok abiskn duit dorg, tp mayb skrg ade keseganan utk mintak la)..skrg aku da rs pnat n payah nk cr duit..tp nk bls pn aku xmampu, aku cuma kuli je..........mm, da stat da aku nk sebak..bye2~

(aku pn xtau nape hrni xrs nk speaking..aku guna bahse ibunda jek..hrp maaf..)

SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-21T21:33:00.005+08:00

GOING OUT CAN BE FUN..BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY, U'LL HAVE TO GO HOME USUALLY FEELING TIRED AFTER DOING UR ROUNDS AT THE SHOPPING MALL OR WHAT NOT...

GOING TO WORK?..IS ALWAYS TIRING..AND UPON REACHING HOME, THE ONE THING U WANT IS TO GET SOME REST..AGREE?..NOW, WHAT ABOUT GOING HOME LISTENING TO YOUR NEIGHBOUR'S DOG BARKING ALL THE WAY..??(WITH A PAUSE OF LESS THAN A MINUTE!!)..macam tarik nafas kejap je aku rase!!! THIS BARKING USUALLY GOES ON UNTIL YOUR NEIGHBOUR (WHICH MEANS MY NEIGHBOUR) BALIK FROM WORK OR WHATEVER LAH!! NOT TRYING TO BLAME THEIR LIFESTYLE, BUT THEY USUALLY REACH HOME AROUND 11++..SO, THE ANNOYING BARK COULD BE HEARD TILL AROUND THAT TIME..

AT TIMES, I HAD TO RAISE MY TV'S VOLUME LEVEL TO BEAT THE DOG'S BARK!! GRRRR!! SO WHAT SHOULD I DO?

TALK TO MY NEIGHBOUR & SAY; "CAN YOU PLZ MAKE SURE YOUR DOG DOESN'T BARK WHEN I'M HOME??"..HUH~
KILL THE DOG??
SLIP A SLEEPING PILL IN THE DOG'S BOWL?
KILL THE DOG??
KILL MY NEIGHBOUR??
MOVE OUT??
FILE A REPORT??
KILL THE DOG??

*sigh*...of coz i'm not gonna kill the dog..poor little dog..he's actually cute jugak..dat's when he doesn't bark la...haih..now i can ONLY do this...pour my heart out kat sini...& wishing dat my neighbour will be home ASAP!..plz la naikkn pangkat dia n transfer him somewhere else..damn! maybe i should be getting a good job & leave this house..shoot! then no one will be renting this house when they find out about the "music" from next door..damn! cepat la balik tuan anjinggggggg!!!

it's a sign.......

2009-01-18T14:25:00.003+08:00

It's already the 18th day of the new year. Yet, i still belum beli organizer which i usually have gotten by December or 1st week of January. With interview appointments, interview confirmations and what not, i god damn need an organizer! My thingy up there just cant hold that much of a memory da kot. Da tua la katakan. And maybe i'm used to just checking what i gotta do from my organizer. Well yeah, dalam organizer tu pun i slalu tulis what i need to buy..huhu. I MUST get it by Monday. Ada interview straight 3days, Monday, Tuesday & Wednesday. All the best to me eh?..hee..

oh-oh~~

2009-01-14T23:20:00.004+08:00

Yesterday,I was driving to shah alam while texting a friend...den i realise dat ada polis trafik depan 2 cars in front of me..n i oso realise dat i wasnt wearing my seat belt walaupun duduk kat depan..(since dey r emphasizing more on wearing d seat belts kat blakang je..ahakz!) so at d speed of light,(chewah!) i grab la my seat belt..while at d same time hitting d brake to slow down ikut Q kreta dpn..damn! mmg la d damn seat belt xleh d tarik! so i released d brake pedal..still, seat belt stuck like shit..after tarik-ing dgn daya panic like hell, d damn seat belt finally surrender itself..when my car moves reluctantly towards d polis trafik..deep down i had d feeling dat he's gonna stop me..reason...??

i was texting while driving
i was not wearing my seat belt

So, as expected, d police stopped my car......................

to call d car on my right to pull his car to d kerbside...phewww!!~

for me?... or not for me?...

2009-01-11T14:35:00.002+08:00

Yesterday afternoon, got called for another interview...so i did some homework bout d place..erm, turned out dat there were too many bad comments bout d place..but d comments were back in mid 2008..very berat hati want 2 attend d interview..but alang2 i'm allowed to attend it, might as well give it a try la kot kn?..mayb d bad comments r plain rumors?..or mayb it's true?..hahah..life's about taking risk eh?..for now, i'm in for watsoever it is..unless papa n mama says NO..

pinkmouse??...

2009-01-10T01:14:00.008+08:00

i wantttt!!!!!
(xde ni dlm dulang antaran, tamau kawin..LOL!!)

craving for another novel........

2009-01-09T01:05:00.004+08:00

it's been a while.......i'm craving for another novel..perhaps another cecelia ahern's kot...mmm...
papa...can i hv another one.....plzzzzzz?...i saw dat they're selling a set of cecelia's..3 for 60 sumthing je pa....huhu...if only papa baca ni..mesti papa blikn kan?..hee..nvm, i'll wait till u ask me if there's anythg dat i want..hehee.. :P

#2 - Thanks for the Memories

2009-01-03T16:43:00.006+08:00

Here comes the novel which i read recently..as usual, there'll b a story behind me getting this novel..it started wif me wanting to search for a job in Ipoh & at d same time shopping!!..well, it turned out dat d place where i attempt to apply for job had ran out of application form, so they told me to pop in some other time & see whether they have gotten the forms with them the next time around.. *sigh*

So i continued my journey to do some shopping..it's either me or the shopping mall..i juz couldn't seem to buy anything..it's like nothing attracts me here! whatever! i juz dont wanna go home empty handed..so i walked into MPH & spot this cute book..i judge a book by it's cover?..blackmouse actually judge a book by it's title first..then only the cover..then the synopsis..hehee..but it pretty much depends on the rating at times, even if it comes wif a lousy cover.. :P

OK..i super duper like dis novel..Cecelia Ahern is surely gonna b in my list of favourite author!!i finished reading it in 1 week..tu pun sbb i have to go here & there..kalo x, nak aje aku skali hadap!..ok2..this novel is about Joyce, who went thru blood transfussion due to miscarriage..after she regain conscious, she realize that something is different with her but she do not know what..slowly, she found that she has a great knowledge about architecture..Joyce who was a vegetarian started to crave for steak..it was a very difficult time for her and this unexplainable things which happen to her is driving her crazy..at the same time, her marriage comes to an end..ni orang kata, bleh gile mroyan eh?..ish2..

When she tell her best friends,they thought that she is hallucinating..then, there's this guy(Justin namanya) whom she met at a hair saloon..she felt as if she had known him before..and the guy seems to feel it too..they seem to be attracted to each other..little did they know that the blood that runs in Joyce veins once belongs to the guy..whom had been trying to track whose life he had saved..

Hahaa..go get the novel & find out how Joyce found out that it was Justin's blood that is now in her body..and also why she suddenly know a great deal about architecture and turns out to eat meat when she's a vegetarian...think you can guess?..think again.. :P

new year = new beginning...eh?..

2009-01-03T15:45:00.003+08:00

first post for d new year..well, i start off my new year with a few new years resolution..one of it recycled and the rest r totally new..blackmouse is turning 25 this year & since she had finished her studies..she's thinking of having a career..ermm...to be honest, blackmouse actually nk further her study..but what to do, there's a thing called "mid twenties crisis" OK?!!

so yeah, today blackmouse received a phone call for interview..& for the ______ (fill in d blank with your favourite number.LOL!) time, she had to turn down the interview invitation..weee..so, bile je blackmouse boleh kerja nih??..it's only d 3rd day of new year..uwaaa!! will i EVER get the chance to at least work?..tak kesah la gaji besau ke xbesau..i had no working experience at ALL!..unless u count practical as work?..tapi,unpaid!!

blackmouse will continue praying dat she will soon be allowed to be hired.. *sigh*

#1 - Ayat-ayat Cinta

2008-12-19T23:38:00.004+08:00

This is the first malay novel that I owned..weee..24 years of living..??what a shame..hee..
It's just a bad habit of mine that I'm not really into reading malay books..xtau le pe masalah problemny kn..Anyway, Mr Busy Bee was the one yg b'tanggungjwb in making me own a malay novel after all this time..

It all started with his little advice that I should watch the "Ayat-ayat Cinta" movie as it is full of nasihat2 & panduan berguna..& if i'm not mistaken, he mentioned it's sort of a guide regarding love, from the islamic point of view...wahhh!!sounds heavy to me..but movie je kn..i don't mind..so me pun ajak my friend to accompany me to watch d movie..turns out that they r no longer screening it at dat time..so ya, kena la cari CD..distracted by this n dat, i pun terforget all bout it..

Months later, i receive the novel from Mr Busy Bee..he doesn't know dat i dun rili read malay novels..hee..but i still read it la..i pn mmg want to know bout d nasihat & panduan kan..mayb by reading it, i could understand it better ke..

After finished reading dis book(which was back in mid Nov), i think malay novel ni isn't la dat bad eh?..but dis one is a bit indonesianish i think..n ya..i finally got d nasihat2 n panduan...awwww...it's quite touchy i'd say..n i rili love the way the author describe the place...mmg rase cam ade kat sane ler..!!eh wait, juz in case u all xtau bout d story..lemme briefly bgth kt u all...(erm...i'm never good at BRIEF description..LOL!)

Well..it's about a guy named Fahri who is a stdt in Al-Azhar..he is close to perfect dat many girls are attracted to him..despite of all the things dat he went through, he ended up marrying a woman named Aisha..who is as close to perfect as he is..they are happy to be together..then one day, Aisha announced about her pregnancy..but Fahri was sentenced to jail..WHY?..hahah!..go la n read d book.. ;)

black mouse signing off now..~~

To write..or not to write?..

2008-12-19T23:30:00.001+08:00

Black mouse is wondering whether or not she should start writing about books she had read..since, well, she's in the mood of reading??!..hurmmm...

Black mouse thinks she should give it a shot..n see how long dis so called "mood" will bertahan..hahah!